Failure Sucks No Matter How You Put It

Even though I could come up with a million excuses for not finishing Script Frenzy for the 2nd time, out of 3, failure… it just sucks. I can say that even if I tried to write that script like a maniac in the last week, I would’ve murdered my school work, but as I sit here at this very moment, I’m avoiding doing work I’m supposed to be doing. Add up all the hours I sit trying to distract myself from the tasks that need to be done, and I’ve got enough time for several scripts a month.

That’s all very depressing -- however, one thing I finally realized is that no matter how much I love watching TV shows, TV writing isn’t my thing. The first time I did Script Frenzy and the only time I won, I wrote a simple movie script. I think the root of the problem is that I’m intuitive (and sometimes just plain random) and these TV script guidelines just end up frustrating me in the end. I do hope, though, that this isn’t a part of a pattern. I’m definitely not planning to lose NaNoWriMo this year! Failure isn’t my thing. I like to win.

On a lighter note, the 90s novel is seeing light after a stall at a hard scene. I think the problem was that I didn’t look forward to writing a sequence of events that wouldn’t be “explosive” enough for my taste… well, now I realized--why write them then? Make a chapter break and a timeline break. Then the good stuff’s going to start. I think I feel a chase scene looming in 5-6 pages.

Oh, and I included a snippet from the very same “hard scene.” Now off to continue avoiding what I’m supposed to be doing!

5 words that I love:

- Luscious
- Murk
- Manila
- Utter
- Murmur